June 29, 2025

June 29, 2025 Sunday Fear I bought another book by Suleika Jaouad, “The Book of Alchemy”. I have been reading her other book “Between Two Kingdoms”. I was searching YouTube when I found out that she has another book. It turns out that it is about journaling. She mentioned someone familiar, Julia Cameron. She mentioned morning pages which I used to do with paper and pen. This time, I am doing it with this laptop, why? So that it is legible. I also started a new blog. Road to the end of life. But I do not like the format. I do not know what happened, as I brushed my teeth earlier, I came up with a new title, THE LAST MILE. Anyway, this will be a daily morning page for me, before I touch my iPhone. So many scenarios are playing out in my mind. One, I have cancer, quit my job, no surgery no chemo. But how about insurance? COBRA? Buy high-deductible insurance? Next, I have cancer, quit my job, and have surgery. No insurance? Next, I have cancer, stay on job, short term disability, surgery. Next, no cancer, happy ending, keep working until I can apply for Medicare.

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